To Do List…..

I find the number one best way to ensure you get the maximum use of your time is to make lists and plans…Oh hang on….the two most effective ways of utilizing your time it to make lists, plans and strategies…Oh for fuck sake…..


Look just make a list on the back of the envelope, and work your way through it…



So the list for today as follows

Run – Check
..although I cut it short as I was too hot….

Update running log on Fetcheveryone.com – Check
……and had a quick look to see how well or not I was clawing my way up the league…..……I’m kind of in the Newport Pagnell under 11’s 5-a-sides position.

Don’t go into Talk section of ‘Fetch’ though as you’ll never come out – Pending
….yeah, I never quite manage this bit. It was a part of the website that was designed (I think) to exchange info and training tips. I always think I’ll maybe have a quick look just to see if there are any training tips I could pick up…..and find myself two hours later still there and talking about what my score was on the ‘flying helicopter’ game

Call ex-husband re:8 months of missing child support – Pending
……still trying to get the words together that don’t include DIE DIE DIE…….

Clean and tidy kitchen – Check.
….. it’s been said before and it’ll be said again I’m a bit of a Martha Stewart (before the IRS stuff)…er….ok ..Fine! It hasn’t actually been said before most people look at my kitchen, give a nervous giggle and say “hmm, yes, it does need rather a lot of work done on it doesn’t it?”…

Send mates reference off – Pending
….Dear Sir’s why yes Mr X would be perfect for your job, it’s his every dream, he thinks your company is the leader in its field. Him applying to work for you has nothing whatsoever to do with that fact he knows the object of his recent stalking will be working in the same department……

Spend 1 x hour on job-hunt – Pending
…yeah, getting a bit sick of this to tell you the truth. Sick of talking to 4 year old recruitment consultants with whiney voices who tell you you’re over qualified or not quite qualified enough…….

Spend 1x hour working on the garden – Pending
…..I took one look out of the window and thought fuck that for a game of soldiers. Which is, in fact, the same response I’ve had every time I’ve thought about venturing out. My garden is a homage to Jurassic Park, complete with huge flat leaved plants and wild animals roaming around it. There are all these strange rustling noises during the night I think it serves as the ‘precinct’ or it’s the local teenage fox equivalent ‘outside McDonalds’…..

Compose email to now-ex-partner – Pending
…hmm a toughie this. I have spent more time on this than is really necessary today. It has sucked all of the life force out of me (not unlike the relationship did). The last couple of emails from said ex-partner where all pretty vicious and full of blame (all towards me naturally)….and I find myself thinking “Is it really worth it?” “Shall I just remember all the good times, when ex-partner had his health and self respect and was a lot nicer”

Do I point out that in his last spiteful and abusive email he says it’s karma’s fault I cant get a job then 24 hours later he get’s rejected from his first choice Uni? Or does that make me spiteful too? So many many things to cover…or not to cover….so many decisions……


Oooh, hang on…yes, it looks as though it’s cooled down outside maybe I should just nip out and do some work on the garden instead…..

How do you know

…when a relationship has ended?


It’s easier to spot when you are younger, you know Colin Johnson no longer plays with you in the sandpit; Lilly Peak is now the object of his 3 year old affection and get’s to share his worm collection. Or during Geography Jason Smith in 5c passes a note to Gummy, who passes a note to Tommo, who passes a note to Stacey Hardy to say you’re dumped……


In adulthood you can have The Screaming Match “I hate you!!”, The Talk “Look it’s not you it’s me”, The Adulterer “This isn’t what it looks like”, The Moonlight Flit “The coast is clear, back up the removals van”…….and then there’s, well there’s the I don’t know what you’d call it.


Does it have a title? Perhaps The Superiority Break-up? When Person 1 (let’s call them P1) takes umbrage at everything the other says (P2). P1 then goes into a sulk ignoring P2 for weeks on end will not answer phone, ignores P2’s emails and generally behaves a bullying child. P1 will only begin to resume relations if P2 takes all the blame, P1 will never initiate contact unless coaxed round in the style of trying to get a toddler to take their medicine……


So what do you do? How much should P2 take? How much would anybody take? Does P2 live in hope that P1 will revert back to their normal loving funny caring persona before P1’s illness? Or does P2 cut their losses, deal with the pain and move on?



I’m off to find a sandpit…………….